Cry Out to the Lord for Help

turning the heart of your “king,” part 4 of 6

Jenny Speed shares the fourth in a series of six articles for wives whose husbands are unrepentant of moral failure.

[wpv-view name="series-block" slug=""] When Mordecai heard of the decree against the Jewish people, he tore his clothes, put on sackcloth and ashes, and cried out with a loud voice. “When Mordecai perceived all that was done, Mordecai rent his clothes, and put on sackcloth with ashes, and went out into the midst of the city, and cried with a loud and bitter cry” (Esther 4:1).

When your heart is desperate, it’s hard to simply pray a quick, soft prayer—you are more likely to cry out with emotion and passion! God promises to hear these cries for help, to work, and to receive glory for rescuing us in the midst of despair. Call upon me in the day of trouble: I will deliver thee, and thou shalt glorify me” (Psalm 50:15).

The Power of Crying Out by Bill Gothard has been a powerful influence in my life as I have learned the difference between prayer (requests and supplication) and a cry to the Lord. It’s not the tone of the voice that makes the difference, it is the desperation of the heart. The example of a man who has fallen into a deep pit helped me understand this concept. This man doesn’t speak in a low voice and calmly ask for help. He desperately screams for help. There are times of desperate need in our lives when we call out to God in the same way.

The first time I remember crying out was two months before Paul came clean. I was so desperate for God to move! I did not know what was wrong in my marriage. I did not know why Paul responded to me the way that he did, why he would not listen to my cautions, and why there was so much stress between us. All I knew there was that I was desperate for something to change.

While Paul was at work one night, I went outside into the darkness and walked to the edge of the woods behind our house. I began to call out at the top of my voice, “Abba Father, deliver Paul from his enemies! Set him free from what ever binds him!” Then I began to worship God by shouting to the heavens that He was my hope, my only hope in my day of trouble. It turned into a wonderful worship service between me and my God in my backyard and in the darkness of the night.

It was just a few weeks after this that Paul took that brave step of coming to the light. Once Paul did come clean, crying out became a daily activity in my life. When Paul and I were going through our darkest days, I would get in my car to run an errand, and I would cry out, “O God, please set us free!” We also cried out on many occasions with all of our children. Crying out to the Lord has become something that we do as a family whenever we are desperate for the Him to work.

Paul & Jenny Speed

Paul & Jenny Speed

Paul and Jenny Speed reside in North Carolina with their six children. They have shared the concepts of openness and brokenness with hundreds of families across the United States, and the power of their testimony has prompted many to seek God’s forgiveness and cleansing. To contact Paul and Jenny with questions or comments, visit their website at

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